evilmcdeathmonster

sober tool There's a shadow just behind me, shrouding every step I take, making every promise empty, pointing every finger at me. Waiting like a stalking butler, who upon the finger rests. Murder now the path called must we, just because the son has come. (Jesus, won't you fucking whistle, something but the past and done? 2x) Why can't we not be sober? Just want to start this over. Why can't we drink forever? I just want to start things over. I am just a worthless liar. I am just an imbecile. I will only complicate you. Trust in me and fall as well. I will find a center in you. I will chew it up and leave

HURT NiN i hurt myself today to see if i still feel i focus on the pain the only thing that's real the needle tears a hole the old familiar sting try to kill it all away but i remember everything what have i become? my sweetest friend everyone i know goes away in the end you could have it all my empire of dirt i will let you down i will make you hurt i wear this crown of shit upon my liar's chair full of broken thoughts i cannot repair beneath the stains of time the feelings disappear you are someone else i am still right here what have i become? my sweetest friend everyone i know goes away in the end and you co

Sunday morning oct/30/09 I woke up to find her gone just as I have for the last week or so. Rolling over I just see how much its taken me to wake up, 1:30. Still hung over from the emotional drama from the night before. I roll over and out of my bed to press my feet to the cold final floor. Rain clouds in the distance told me that it was going to rain later. As I sit up I fell all of the warmth dissipate from my bed, I find that krism Is standing in my doorway. She came over to drop off some of your $h!t said krism. Oh, thank you I think I would have found it eventually HEY just because your mad at her doesnt mean you have to take it out